“I hope one day, we find each other again and laugh over whatever pain we might have caused…” – R.M. Drake
I am trying to make you a part of my past, to break away from you, but our experiences together keep us connected on a cosmic level. Forever connected. Time is an illusion.
I have to change the way I think about you. The lens I use to view our experiences together… Our “time” together. I must be aware that I cannot bury your memories, lest I should bury a part of me. I am alive, and no part of me can be buried until all of me is ready to return to dust. I must accept my experiences with you the same way I accept a sunrise and a sunset.
Eventually I will heal enough to smile about some of our memories together. For now, I will settle for just being grateful to the Creator for putting you in my path although I do not understand why.
I am grateful that I survived you.
I am stronger for having survived you.
That’s the best I can manage right now. But I know me well enough to know that I can and will change my view of our experiences, eventually. Those changes in my heart will bring me more peace and awareness; they are blessings, waiting on my horizon.